I like studying, but studying in a not-so-serious way.
I like getting good grades, well who doesn't? But I guess no one does that without effort. Well I know the genius ones are different. I'm not one of them. So there was a time that I opted to study whenever I can. It sucks though. I swear I'm not good at this studying-a-week-before-the-exam thing. I'm not saying I'm not gonna do it again. But for the meantime, I'll go back to my old study habit - which is - not studying that hard. I do study, but I actually apply a lot on my STM - or short term memory.
I'll try to make sense. Okay. Uhm, you know what it's like when you're studying, and yeah let's say cramming, but then you don't really feel that you're cramming at all? Like it ceases to be called 'cramming' at all because it's just the way that it's done. It's like you don't really cram, you just study that way, and you retain information better that way. Cramming really does work for some people, and I guess including me.
Will someone tell me why the hell am I defending cramming?!?!?
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The Quest of a Supergirl Wannabe
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"If I could be like that, I would give anything. Just to live one day in their shoes. If I could be like that, what would I do?"
- 3 Doors Down
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I believe that we all have this "quest" in our lives. A "quest" that we are passionate about. It's the "quest" that we particularly work hard for. The "quest" that pushes us to do other things we did not imagine we would ever do. A "quest" we enjoy, hate, laugh/smile at, cry for, and think over in our lives.
My "quest" is something that has induced and directed my life; it pragmatically is my life. I am always expecting that everything in my life will fall into their proper places, yet it feels like almost everything is starting to fall apart. What's frustrating is that it is inevitable.
I have come to this point when I began asking myself: "Is this the life that I really wanted to live?" I think some of you had the same question too. We ask this question, not really knowing the answer, because i think it will really suck to realize that all your life has been dedicated to some "quest," which in time you come to realize is of no worth or reason at all.
My "quest" is not that big really. Nor is it something that I can really boast to anyone. The decision to live the "accounting student life" had come naturally to me. It's actually a personal choice. I don't recall anybody, especially my parents, forcing me to pursue any other course.
I did many other things while enjoying my "quest." I did not put my hobby of writing to waste. I know that the love of writing and numbers will not match, but they do in my case.
I was always this "in-between" kind of girl in campus. I'm not the brainiest nor the dumbest. I'm not the coolest nor the geekiest. In other words, I'm not really sure of what is the best adjective that could describe me when I was younger. Maybe I was just inspired. And I'm inspired until now. Inspired to try many things. Not only academics. I don't like focusing on one thing only. I can have an ultimate dream - a "quest" - but that doesn't mean I'll stop giving attention to other things. You may not get what I mean as of the moment, but at the end of this article, you'll see.
I may always want to try many things, but I still have this duty to choose them. Choose what I will do. Choose what is right. I know that sometimes, it's good to be bad. But when you come to think of the long run, it is much better to take careful steps than find yourself regretting in the end.
While my classmates and friends were busy playing volleyball games and finding the cutest guys in campus, my time was spent on countless adventures with the novels and magazines I read. I always make sure that when I engage in doing something, I get to learn from it, whether it's a small or big thing. Having fun for me was not malling and games. It was enjoying the latest show of Barney, Spongebob, and Hi-5 on tv, together with my adorable younger brother. It was also learning to explore what adults are interested in - current events, the economy, politics, and the like. I did not even find the time to learn HTML. Well right now I'm trying!
In high school, I was never one of the girls who learned to smoke, get drunk and brag about their sexual escapades while I thought and seeked advice from people I look up to on what's in store for me once I get to college. I joined quiz bees while they thought I was wasting time. When we were given free time in class, I wrote essays or stories, while they talk about the latest Hollywood gossips and what's new in the fashion world.
I am a boring girl. I would not complain if you would choose to call me that. I would even say thank you.
I hate to admit that there have been times, whether I'm lying in bed, or just sitting at home doing nothing, when I wish I did not do the things I did. When I wish that I did not choose the things I chose. That things would take a different turn in one click. When I wish my "quest" had not been accounting. When I wish I could just punch anyone who would tell me, "You're so good in writing, what made you pursue accountancy instead of journalism?" When I wish that the people who told me that would see accounting not just a course for nerds, or for serious business-minded individuals. That you could be an accountant and a writer at the same time. When I wish that I should've taken up History or Asian Studies, since I knew historical events by heart.
I'd wonder how my life could have been, had I become a volleyball pro. Or the representative of the class to the annual pageant. Or score the latest fashion. Or a feared bad girl in high school. Just like the rest of the "cool" girls to say the least.
My usual escape mechanism is to just continue what I've been doing. As they say, you can't teach an old dog new tricks. I change my ways by adding something new to it. Not totally changing and going back to start. Life is a game, but in some aspects, it is not.
If things were the other way around, then I probably couldn't have passed the entrance exam of one of the prestigious universities in the Philippines. Or finished high school with awards. Or written the short story that won me a silver medal in a literature festival of our university. Or answered the questions in those trivia contests that gave me medals and earned me kudos and congratulations from people I did not even know. Or witnessed the joy in my parents' faces when they see my brother and I laugh together. Or you probably wouldn't be reading this article now! haha!
Wondering how it would feel to be somebody else is just routine to me I think. Well, I guess there's nothing wrong with that. Rather than suppress my woes, it is much better to admit them.
For some, it's too bad because turning back is no option. But for me, it's good. I can't say that I did everything perfectly, but turning back would just make my dreams that have been giving me directions twist into a vicious nightmare. I don't want to live a lifetime hating myself, for the decisions I made and this person I wanted to be.
I'm exactly where I want to be. If what I do will take me to greater heights, then that would be the best!
In spite of everything, I've come a long way trying to be good at pursuing my "quest" by this time.
Oh, at this time, I've come to realize that I shouldn't stop at doing just good.
It should be best. My best at pursuing "my quest." The "quest" of a supergirl wannabe. Go dindin!
P.S. Do I still need to explain what's the 3 Doors Down song is doing up there?
"If I could be like that, I would give anything. Just to live one day in their shoes. If I could be like that, what would I do?"
- 3 Doors Down
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I believe that we all have this "quest" in our lives. A "quest" that we are passionate about. It's the "quest" that we particularly work hard for. The "quest" that pushes us to do other things we did not imagine we would ever do. A "quest" we enjoy, hate, laugh/smile at, cry for, and think over in our lives.
My "quest" is something that has induced and directed my life; it pragmatically is my life. I am always expecting that everything in my life will fall into their proper places, yet it feels like almost everything is starting to fall apart. What's frustrating is that it is inevitable.
I have come to this point when I began asking myself: "Is this the life that I really wanted to live?" I think some of you had the same question too. We ask this question, not really knowing the answer, because i think it will really suck to realize that all your life has been dedicated to some "quest," which in time you come to realize is of no worth or reason at all.
My "quest" is not that big really. Nor is it something that I can really boast to anyone. The decision to live the "accounting student life" had come naturally to me. It's actually a personal choice. I don't recall anybody, especially my parents, forcing me to pursue any other course.
I did many other things while enjoying my "quest." I did not put my hobby of writing to waste. I know that the love of writing and numbers will not match, but they do in my case.
I was always this "in-between" kind of girl in campus. I'm not the brainiest nor the dumbest. I'm not the coolest nor the geekiest. In other words, I'm not really sure of what is the best adjective that could describe me when I was younger. Maybe I was just inspired. And I'm inspired until now. Inspired to try many things. Not only academics. I don't like focusing on one thing only. I can have an ultimate dream - a "quest" - but that doesn't mean I'll stop giving attention to other things. You may not get what I mean as of the moment, but at the end of this article, you'll see.
I may always want to try many things, but I still have this duty to choose them. Choose what I will do. Choose what is right. I know that sometimes, it's good to be bad. But when you come to think of the long run, it is much better to take careful steps than find yourself regretting in the end.
While my classmates and friends were busy playing volleyball games and finding the cutest guys in campus, my time was spent on countless adventures with the novels and magazines I read. I always make sure that when I engage in doing something, I get to learn from it, whether it's a small or big thing. Having fun for me was not malling and games. It was enjoying the latest show of Barney, Spongebob, and Hi-5 on tv, together with my adorable younger brother. It was also learning to explore what adults are interested in - current events, the economy, politics, and the like. I did not even find the time to learn HTML. Well right now I'm trying!
In high school, I was never one of the girls who learned to smoke, get drunk and brag about their sexual escapades while I thought and seeked advice from people I look up to on what's in store for me once I get to college. I joined quiz bees while they thought I was wasting time. When we were given free time in class, I wrote essays or stories, while they talk about the latest Hollywood gossips and what's new in the fashion world.
I am a boring girl. I would not complain if you would choose to call me that. I would even say thank you.
I hate to admit that there have been times, whether I'm lying in bed, or just sitting at home doing nothing, when I wish I did not do the things I did. When I wish that I did not choose the things I chose. That things would take a different turn in one click. When I wish my "quest" had not been accounting. When I wish I could just punch anyone who would tell me, "You're so good in writing, what made you pursue accountancy instead of journalism?" When I wish that the people who told me that would see accounting not just a course for nerds, or for serious business-minded individuals. That you could be an accountant and a writer at the same time. When I wish that I should've taken up History or Asian Studies, since I knew historical events by heart.
I'd wonder how my life could have been, had I become a volleyball pro. Or the representative of the class to the annual pageant. Or score the latest fashion. Or a feared bad girl in high school. Just like the rest of the "cool" girls to say the least.
My usual escape mechanism is to just continue what I've been doing. As they say, you can't teach an old dog new tricks. I change my ways by adding something new to it. Not totally changing and going back to start. Life is a game, but in some aspects, it is not.
If things were the other way around, then I probably couldn't have passed the entrance exam of one of the prestigious universities in the Philippines. Or finished high school with awards. Or written the short story that won me a silver medal in a literature festival of our university. Or answered the questions in those trivia contests that gave me medals and earned me kudos and congratulations from people I did not even know. Or witnessed the joy in my parents' faces when they see my brother and I laugh together. Or you probably wouldn't be reading this article now! haha!
Wondering how it would feel to be somebody else is just routine to me I think. Well, I guess there's nothing wrong with that. Rather than suppress my woes, it is much better to admit them.
For some, it's too bad because turning back is no option. But for me, it's good. I can't say that I did everything perfectly, but turning back would just make my dreams that have been giving me directions twist into a vicious nightmare. I don't want to live a lifetime hating myself, for the decisions I made and this person I wanted to be.
I'm exactly where I want to be. If what I do will take me to greater heights, then that would be the best!
In spite of everything, I've come a long way trying to be good at pursuing my "quest" by this time.
Oh, at this time, I've come to realize that I shouldn't stop at doing just good.
It should be best. My best at pursuing "my quest." The "quest" of a supergirl wannabe. Go dindin!
P.S. Do I still need to explain what's the 3 Doors Down song is doing up there?
Girl, you'll be a Woman soon
Growing up can be a drag, or it can be the best thing that’s ever happened to you.
When I was in high school, I was neither the popular girl nor the geek. I failed to be the campus sweetheart because I was not fair-skinned and slim. I was never the nerd, either. I was too naughty to be one, and with not so impressive grades, no one could really blame me for being gifted. So I was sort of the girl who was just there. I hung out with the cool and fast girls, but I hung out with the muses of the math club, too. In other words, I befriended almost everyone, regardless of their coolness or nerdyness.
In college, I can’t say that I totally fit in. I entered a huge university, wherein teenagers from all points in the Philippines who have some money and real brains go to. I wasn’t as insecure and trusting as I was in high school. I became more wary of people and more certain of what I wanted and expected. I became more independent. My parents are not always there for me during those times I was adjusting. So I really had to depend on me. I thought everyone was boring. Truth was, I was dead scared of everyone.
Mom and Dad are always reminding me to study and work hard. I didn’t want to disappoint them, especially my dad. So I inured myself into that kind of setup. I never went to school unprepared. I always tried to get satisfactory grades. In fact, I became a worrier. My old friends said they missed the happy-go-lucky and full of life Dindin that they once knew. So that was when I began to reassess myself. I thought that maybe I was being too hard on myself. I was always preoccupied about school stuff that I forgot how to have fun. My friends felt that I’ve forgotten them too.
What I did was, I focused only on the important tasks and tried to manage my time. At first, it was hard. But then as I worked my way on it, I just found myself smiling while learning. I tried not to stress on everything. Now, I’m engaged in different extra-curricular activities and became active in some student organizations. Next thing I knew, I am on stage hosting events and concerts in school. I even found a new hobby, and that is photography.
Accounting is not easy. Since it cannot be learned through just reading and memorizing, one has to keep on practicing how to solve problems and understand how it works. It is a skill. One of my biggest goals is to become a CPA someday. I had to show my parents that this is what I really wanted. I never smoked a cigarette, had beer, considered drugs, or did things that will make them think I’m irresponsible. To be fair to all parents, they will always want the best for their kids. It’s just that sometimes things get a little out of hand, because in reality, I’m still a teenager. There were times that I’ve forgotten to tell them how I’ve been doing in school. The good thing about it is there’s always room for explanation no matter how bad it can get. What counts is that if you know yourself enough, you won’t let other people or other things hold you back from becoming your authentic self just because you have to attune to a certain criteria to fit in or look good. I have to set aside other things so as not to misuse the opportunities I’ve been given in this lifetime, too. Because for one, nothing right will come out of any wrong action you do, especially if you let go of your values. Say for example, I refuse going out with my buddies on girls’ nights out, because I know there are lots of important things to do with my time. If they are my real friends, they would understand why I did that. The trade-offs in the choices that one makes are sometimes invisible. Sometimes, it’s too late to turn back when they start popping up, one by one. And before you know it, you’ve lost it.
The things I’ve gone through only made me a stronger person, and being strong gave me the leverage to watch things unfold, things that actually continue to surprise me up to now. So many doors had to close before my eyes for me to find the last one that led me to where I am now. I haven’t accomplished many of my goals yet, but I can tell you one thing: I’m happy where I am and I wouldn’t want it the other way.
When I entered college in 2005, I lost 10 pounds. By the time I got to 3rd year, I lost another 10. My friends teased me about being a late bloomer. But losing weight helped me see people’s true colors. Before, guys would ignore me or make fun of me. Now, they treat me with more respect. No matter what people say, looks really matter. The change in my appearance gave me more confidence, but I never let that get to my head because I know how it feels to be the ugly duckling. It’s really painful.
I also broke up with my first boyfriend. Although he was fun to be with and a good guy, there were times I’d think that he wasn’t the right one for me. There was just something missing. It was sad because we had been together for 2 years. I had depended on him when I was at my most vulnerable. But I realized that my entire wellbeing and happiness shouldn’t depend on one person.
At first, my parents doubted my decisions and choices. But they saw that I eventually pulled through. I now follow my heart in everything that I do. Finally, I know what I want. I don’t want to settle and play it safe. We only have one life. Don’t go down the safe road. There’s just so much more out there.
When I was in high school, I was neither the popular girl nor the geek. I failed to be the campus sweetheart because I was not fair-skinned and slim. I was never the nerd, either. I was too naughty to be one, and with not so impressive grades, no one could really blame me for being gifted. So I was sort of the girl who was just there. I hung out with the cool and fast girls, but I hung out with the muses of the math club, too. In other words, I befriended almost everyone, regardless of their coolness or nerdyness.
In college, I can’t say that I totally fit in. I entered a huge university, wherein teenagers from all points in the Philippines who have some money and real brains go to. I wasn’t as insecure and trusting as I was in high school. I became more wary of people and more certain of what I wanted and expected. I became more independent. My parents are not always there for me during those times I was adjusting. So I really had to depend on me. I thought everyone was boring. Truth was, I was dead scared of everyone.
Mom and Dad are always reminding me to study and work hard. I didn’t want to disappoint them, especially my dad. So I inured myself into that kind of setup. I never went to school unprepared. I always tried to get satisfactory grades. In fact, I became a worrier. My old friends said they missed the happy-go-lucky and full of life Dindin that they once knew. So that was when I began to reassess myself. I thought that maybe I was being too hard on myself. I was always preoccupied about school stuff that I forgot how to have fun. My friends felt that I’ve forgotten them too.
What I did was, I focused only on the important tasks and tried to manage my time. At first, it was hard. But then as I worked my way on it, I just found myself smiling while learning. I tried not to stress on everything. Now, I’m engaged in different extra-curricular activities and became active in some student organizations. Next thing I knew, I am on stage hosting events and concerts in school. I even found a new hobby, and that is photography.
Accounting is not easy. Since it cannot be learned through just reading and memorizing, one has to keep on practicing how to solve problems and understand how it works. It is a skill. One of my biggest goals is to become a CPA someday. I had to show my parents that this is what I really wanted. I never smoked a cigarette, had beer, considered drugs, or did things that will make them think I’m irresponsible. To be fair to all parents, they will always want the best for their kids. It’s just that sometimes things get a little out of hand, because in reality, I’m still a teenager. There were times that I’ve forgotten to tell them how I’ve been doing in school. The good thing about it is there’s always room for explanation no matter how bad it can get. What counts is that if you know yourself enough, you won’t let other people or other things hold you back from becoming your authentic self just because you have to attune to a certain criteria to fit in or look good. I have to set aside other things so as not to misuse the opportunities I’ve been given in this lifetime, too. Because for one, nothing right will come out of any wrong action you do, especially if you let go of your values. Say for example, I refuse going out with my buddies on girls’ nights out, because I know there are lots of important things to do with my time. If they are my real friends, they would understand why I did that. The trade-offs in the choices that one makes are sometimes invisible. Sometimes, it’s too late to turn back when they start popping up, one by one. And before you know it, you’ve lost it.
The things I’ve gone through only made me a stronger person, and being strong gave me the leverage to watch things unfold, things that actually continue to surprise me up to now. So many doors had to close before my eyes for me to find the last one that led me to where I am now. I haven’t accomplished many of my goals yet, but I can tell you one thing: I’m happy where I am and I wouldn’t want it the other way.
When I entered college in 2005, I lost 10 pounds. By the time I got to 3rd year, I lost another 10. My friends teased me about being a late bloomer. But losing weight helped me see people’s true colors. Before, guys would ignore me or make fun of me. Now, they treat me with more respect. No matter what people say, looks really matter. The change in my appearance gave me more confidence, but I never let that get to my head because I know how it feels to be the ugly duckling. It’s really painful.
I also broke up with my first boyfriend. Although he was fun to be with and a good guy, there were times I’d think that he wasn’t the right one for me. There was just something missing. It was sad because we had been together for 2 years. I had depended on him when I was at my most vulnerable. But I realized that my entire wellbeing and happiness shouldn’t depend on one person.
At first, my parents doubted my decisions and choices. But they saw that I eventually pulled through. I now follow my heart in everything that I do. Finally, I know what I want. I don’t want to settle and play it safe. We only have one life. Don’t go down the safe road. There’s just so much more out there.
Who am I?
I've written this article almost 4 years ago. This was already posted in my friendster blog, xanga blog, and myspace blog. So, you see, uhmm, I'm not contented with one blog site. I know I should change that attitude though. Ka Ching!
Who am I? You sure you wanna know?? haha, no just kidding... I am a very serious living organism/thing on this luxuriant and somewhat horrendous planet Earth. It doesn't mean that if I said that I'm serious, it means that I'm totally serious! It's not what you think...I'm serious in a way that I find time to improve, grow, and become mature in this fast-changing world of ours. I still find time to have fun, socialize, experiment on everything, and give my 101% effort, strength, and adrenaline to try different things that I never thought I would ever try. And the one thing that I never forget to do at the start of the day, SMILE! A smile brings happiness to everyone. You never know that some problematic people might forget about all their teething troubles once they catch a glimpse of your beautiful smile....so my advice, smile!!!
Who am I? You sure you wanna know?? haha, no just kidding... I am a very serious living organism/thing on this luxuriant and somewhat horrendous planet Earth. It doesn't mean that if I said that I'm serious, it means that I'm totally serious! It's not what you think...I'm serious in a way that I find time to improve, grow, and become mature in this fast-changing world of ours. I still find time to have fun, socialize, experiment on everything, and give my 101% effort, strength, and adrenaline to try different things that I never thought I would ever try. And the one thing that I never forget to do at the start of the day, SMILE! A smile brings happiness to everyone. You never know that some problematic people might forget about all their teething troubles once they catch a glimpse of your beautiful smile....so my advice, smile!!!
I will ask again another question. Am I happy? I've already asked myself that question countless of times. Do I even know myself? I guess the first answer to that dilemma of mine is an unequivocal and insistent yes. Yes, I am happy. I am happy that I have such energetic, loyal and full of joie de vivre friends. I admit that because of them, my high-spiritedness is always present in my hale and hearty soul. I feel like I'm in seventh heaven because I'm able to partake of the sundry offerings of this wonderful world. I always wonder why most people, desire to be contented. I believe that contentment is a word that can really be found in the lexicons, but if you analyze and reflected more deeply onto this word, you'll be able to realize that no one and nobody, is contented. Why did I say so? It's simple. Almost every person who prays to the Almighty will always have the phrases: "I hope ______" and "I wish ______", and so on and so forth. That's real evidence isn't it? Well, that's just in my opinion. haha!
Me, I can say that I'm delighted that I belong to a great school, wherein I'm able to exercise my skills, and use the talents that God has given me. I meet different kinds of people, and am able to distinguish who can be really trusted. I am dominated by emotion by the thought that even though the world is really full of terrors, I still manage to survive and live my life the way I want to. But I have to admit, that besides all these happiness and joy that I feel when I think of the positive side, I'm still not contented with what I have. In fact, I'm still yearning for something more. And it seems really crazy that I don't even know what's that something that I'm yearning about. It's for me to find out. Okay, after I related to you my undying confusion about who I really am, let me tell you something about my relationships with God, and His son, Jesus Christ. I can say that I truly believe that religion matters. I love my religion unconditionally. Without God, I don't think I could ever survive any hardships that I encounter during my past experiences. Up to now, I consider Him my Father, my best friend, my hero, and most especially, my lifesaver. Reflecting about the fulfillment of Jesus' mission here on earth and the sacrifice that he made for us by giving up his life and letting himself be crucified just to save us from sin, helped me realize that no one in this world I can rely on except him. For this reason, I am beyond doubt, a firm believer of Jesus Christ.
After writing this, I finally realized that indeed, I am happy. I don't have to think of all the worries and fears that I have all throughout my life. I have to focus on the brighter side of life, and think of possible solutions wherein I could prevent myself from giving up easily, and surrendering myself without fighting for it. I am delighted because I am not alone. There are many people out there who truly love me, and accept who I am. I really have to be grateful because of these wonderful blessings that even money can't buy. It all comes from God, the Father, and I owe it all to Him. :)
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
San ba talaga?
haay ang tagal-tagal na wala parin akong mapili sa mga blog sites na na-try ko na. haha. maraming gumagamit ng multiply, ng blogger, ng wordpress, ng tabulas, ng friendster, ng myspace, ng xanga.. waa tama na ayoko na mag-advertise.
kasi naman, ang arte ko talaga. may mga friends ako from the US and Australia, eh hindi naman sila nakakaintindi ng tagalog so gusto kong magtalaga ng blog ko na yung isa, mixed Filipino and English, yung isa puro English lang. waa.. posible kaya? sana naman. haay..
so far, ang talagang naaalagaan kong blog sites eh myspace at friendster. etong sa blogger, yung iba, nag-copy paste lang ako ng iba kong entries. haay.. di bale makakapagsulat din ako na uniquely for blogger lang..waaa.. wish me luck
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kasi naman, ang arte ko talaga. may mga friends ako from the US and Australia, eh hindi naman sila nakakaintindi ng tagalog so gusto kong magtalaga ng blog ko na yung isa, mixed Filipino and English, yung isa puro English lang. waa.. posible kaya? sana naman. haay..
so far, ang talagang naaalagaan kong blog sites eh myspace at friendster. etong sa blogger, yung iba, nag-copy paste lang ako ng iba kong entries. haay.. di bale makakapagsulat din ako na uniquely for blogger lang..waaa.. wish me luck
=)
Friday, June 6, 2008
Blank, but happy nonetheless
"Are you happy?"
I have this habit of asking that question to those people I love. I don't really know why. The thing is, after asking them if they are happy, I won't bother to ask them why.
"Why are you happy?"
I haven't tried asking them. I'm just contented to know that they are happy. But I dont ask why. Maybe there are reasons why I dont want to ask.
-a why question is hard to answer, compared to a yes/no question [am i right?]
-i dont want them to think that i'm so emo.
-i believe that you can be happy for no apparent reason at all.
I like the 3rd reason.
Not because it makes sense, but because that's what I'm feeling right now.
Despite the fact that almost everything is crashing down before my very eyes, I feel strangely happy. It's that feeling where you suddenly feel content at your state, no matter how much despair or suicidal you feel at the moment. It's that feeling where you really know that you're happy, and not bothering to know why. I forget why I am all alone here infront of the pc, telling myself and those who will read this that I am seriously happy. I have this feeling of wanting to let go of whatever is weighing me down at the moment.
I'm not the kind of person who always gets the chance of spending time with my friends, hanging out, watching movies, playing a sport, or just plain having fun. I can say that everytime I get to go out of the four corners of our home, I feel happy. Yes, I do. But if I don't get the chance to do that, I'm still happy. I don't feel any difference.
That's the main point. You can always choose to be happy. No matter in what state you are, just be happy.
Why did I say so? Well, it's because I tried asking myself why I am happy. The answer that was formed in my head was this: "I'm just happy. Do I need to have a reason for that?"
It's a blank feeling but at least the weight on my shoulders is not heavy. That's the best part I think. I can't really voice out why I am happy, but I can't give any reason why not to be happy.
I have this habit of asking that question to those people I love. I don't really know why. The thing is, after asking them if they are happy, I won't bother to ask them why.
"Why are you happy?"
I haven't tried asking them. I'm just contented to know that they are happy. But I dont ask why. Maybe there are reasons why I dont want to ask.
-a why question is hard to answer, compared to a yes/no question [am i right?]
-i dont want them to think that i'm so emo.
-i believe that you can be happy for no apparent reason at all.
I like the 3rd reason.
Not because it makes sense, but because that's what I'm feeling right now.
Despite the fact that almost everything is crashing down before my very eyes, I feel strangely happy. It's that feeling where you suddenly feel content at your state, no matter how much despair or suicidal you feel at the moment. It's that feeling where you really know that you're happy, and not bothering to know why. I forget why I am all alone here infront of the pc, telling myself and those who will read this that I am seriously happy. I have this feeling of wanting to let go of whatever is weighing me down at the moment.
I'm not the kind of person who always gets the chance of spending time with my friends, hanging out, watching movies, playing a sport, or just plain having fun. I can say that everytime I get to go out of the four corners of our home, I feel happy. Yes, I do. But if I don't get the chance to do that, I'm still happy. I don't feel any difference.
That's the main point. You can always choose to be happy. No matter in what state you are, just be happy.
Why did I say so? Well, it's because I tried asking myself why I am happy. The answer that was formed in my head was this: "I'm just happy. Do I need to have a reason for that?"
It's a blank feeling but at least the weight on my shoulders is not heavy. That's the best part I think. I can't really voice out why I am happy, but I can't give any reason why not to be happy.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Random Thoughts of a Bored Creature
Golden rule: For every thought that i've written below, feel free to hit the BACK, HOME, or SIGN OUT button once you get bored. PEACE :)
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if you (the one who's reading this) happen to know me, you may have known that i'm simple. yeah, simple. i have "simple" dreams too. but simple doesn't always mean attainable. by reading the list, judge which ones are simple and attainable, and which ones are as impossible as making humans live in jupiter.
things i dream of:
1. paris hilton checks out FHM's 100 sexiest women in the world for 2008. seeing that she ranked no. 2 surprised her. but this is her reaction upon seeing who ranked no. 1: "who the hell is Dindin?!?!?!" (dream on Miss Telen! haha!)
2. to be a millionaire.
3. to own a building. (exact number of floors and location still pending!)
4. to be a writer. **
5. to be a CPA. (is this new?!?!?) **
6. to have my mini library at home upgraded. (or have a huge library! aaacckk!)
7. to meet Dirk Nowitzki in person.
8. to be a good wife and mother someday. **
9. to know that JK Rowling, Dan Brown, Tom Clancy, and Stephen King are reading my blog. (vomit!)
10. To make the reader of this post laugh. (if you dont laugh i swear your anus will close!)
(Note: Those marked with ** are absolutely unchangeable.)
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reasons why i love blogging:
1. you can write everything you want without any rules on grammar, margin, commas, periods, etc.
2. there is no honorable professor or teacher who will give you a grade of 60 or 70.
3. there is no required theme to write about.
4. you feel good when the reader comments on your post, whether it's positive or negative.
5. i know i'm kinda strict when it comes to grammar, but i love blogging because it's not like English class. parts of speech. sentence patterns. subject and verb agreement. tenses. spelling. chronology. plot. Oink Oink.
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The Dangers of Wrong Spelling:
husband texted his wife while on a business trip
"trip was fine. the place is so nice. i'm having so much fun. wish you were her."
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things i want in a boyfriend or future partner
(i've written this in 2005, and it's not yet expired. haha! writing this was fun. i dont know if you reading this will mean fun. if you find this sooo corny and cheesy, go back to the golden rule above.)
1. kind **
2. has a great sense of humor **
3. the biggest supporter of my dreams **
4. highly-tolerant, open-minded **
5. loves to travel and has dreams of seeing the world
6. remembers things i say, even ones i've already forgotten i've said
7. has a great deal of respect for women **
8. smells good **
9. loves my family and friends **
10. fiercely loyal **
11. someone who openly considers me his best friend **
12. has a nice smile.
13. courageously pursues his dreams
14. thinks that i'm the smartest, the funniest, and the most intoxicating lady in existence!
(Note: those marked with ** are absolutely non-negotiable.)
++++++++++
i don't find Scrabble as a fun game. Word Factory, quite okay. Crossword Puzzle, sometimes. Word Hunt, quite stable. forgive me for not liking scrabble. yes, i like to write, but scrabble doesn't like me. haha! i remember during my high school days i was always the one with the lowest score when playing it with my closest friends. i'm the type who would always scratch my head when i get my turn. i would feel proud once i get a score of 10 for every word. example of words i typically form: IN, ON, AT, TO, TOO, TWO...and drumroll please...i will add the most precious letter S if applicable.
++++++++++
i am so amazed by how the brain works. i don't believe that we only use the 10% of it. maybe some people misinterpreted Albert Einstein's joke back in the day. the result is a businessman wanted to sell products that would make the 90% work. nowadays, i see lots of TV ads telling me that if i take their brain vitamin, my test results will improve, and my memory will be enhanced. haha! while watching the ad i was half-expecting if i could do magic tricks once i take the pill..
scientists say that the brain is efficient. each part of the brain has its own purpose. from getting and interpreting information, making decisions, communicating, controlling the body, falling in love, to recognizing the person you've been wanting to kill all this time - all of these go through our brain.
signs that your brain is working: (warning: dont believe everything.)
1. you ask youself "Who am I?" knowing your name, age, address, race, sex, height, weight, and your favorite food isn't enough. it's about knowing who you really are as a person.
2. you decide to memorize the value of pi up to its 37th decimal place. (3.14159265358979323846266433832795028841)
3. you start thinking of what you can contribute to mankind besides world peace.
4. you're reading superdindin's blog.
5. you realize that what you're reading now is full of crap.
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10 signs that you're definitely bored:
10. you start talking to yourself.
9. you realize no one is talking back so you turn the TV on.
8. there's nothing fun to watch so you turn the TV off.
7. since you're totally bored, you decide to make your own Top Ten list.
6. then you decide not to finish it.
++++++++++
i have two main reasons why i write:
1. for the reader to learn.
2. i want to entertain so the reader will have fun.
(tsktsk. i have to make sure i have done at least any of the two.)
++++++++++
the three biggest mistakes of humans:
1. not having faith in God.
2. not befriending me.
3. not reading my blog.
++++++++++
Upon writing this, i've realized that i have two dreams. one is to be a CPA. another is to be a writer. if you will ask me why, i have my answers ready for that.
i want to be a CPA not just because i want those three meaningful/blinking letters to be written beside my unique name someday. i want to be a CPA because i want to be an accountant, which is the same as guys wanting me to be their girlfriend. haha okay serious now. well, i see myself working in big companies, and earning a huge amount of salary. having a calculator as my sidekick. oops.
i want to be a writer not just because i want to be one. it's because i want to write. that's where it starts. i don't know if it's innate talent, but it all starts with getting a pen and paper, and jotting down all your thoughts and ideas, and your crush's name. oops. haha!
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the end.
++++++++++
if you (the one who's reading this) happen to know me, you may have known that i'm simple. yeah, simple. i have "simple" dreams too. but simple doesn't always mean attainable. by reading the list, judge which ones are simple and attainable, and which ones are as impossible as making humans live in jupiter.
things i dream of:
1. paris hilton checks out FHM's 100 sexiest women in the world for 2008. seeing that she ranked no. 2 surprised her. but this is her reaction upon seeing who ranked no. 1: "who the hell is Dindin?!?!?!" (dream on Miss Telen! haha!)
2. to be a millionaire.
3. to own a building. (exact number of floors and location still pending!)
4. to be a writer. **
5. to be a CPA. (is this new?!?!?) **
6. to have my mini library at home upgraded. (or have a huge library! aaacckk!)
7. to meet Dirk Nowitzki in person.
8. to be a good wife and mother someday. **
9. to know that JK Rowling, Dan Brown, Tom Clancy, and Stephen King are reading my blog. (vomit!)
10. To make the reader of this post laugh. (if you dont laugh i swear your anus will close!)
(Note: Those marked with ** are absolutely unchangeable.)
++++++++++
reasons why i love blogging:
1. you can write everything you want without any rules on grammar, margin, commas, periods, etc.
2. there is no honorable professor or teacher who will give you a grade of 60 or 70.
3. there is no required theme to write about.
4. you feel good when the reader comments on your post, whether it's positive or negative.
5. i know i'm kinda strict when it comes to grammar, but i love blogging because it's not like English class. parts of speech. sentence patterns. subject and verb agreement. tenses. spelling. chronology. plot. Oink Oink.
++++++++++
The Dangers of Wrong Spelling:
husband texted his wife while on a business trip
"trip was fine. the place is so nice. i'm having so much fun. wish you were her."
++++++++++
things i want in a boyfriend or future partner
(i've written this in 2005, and it's not yet expired. haha! writing this was fun. i dont know if you reading this will mean fun. if you find this sooo corny and cheesy, go back to the golden rule above.)
1. kind **
2. has a great sense of humor **
3. the biggest supporter of my dreams **
4. highly-tolerant, open-minded **
5. loves to travel and has dreams of seeing the world
6. remembers things i say, even ones i've already forgotten i've said
7. has a great deal of respect for women **
8. smells good **
9. loves my family and friends **
10. fiercely loyal **
11. someone who openly considers me his best friend **
12. has a nice smile.
13. courageously pursues his dreams
14. thinks that i'm the smartest, the funniest, and the most intoxicating lady in existence!
(Note: those marked with ** are absolutely non-negotiable.)
++++++++++
i don't find Scrabble as a fun game. Word Factory, quite okay. Crossword Puzzle, sometimes. Word Hunt, quite stable. forgive me for not liking scrabble. yes, i like to write, but scrabble doesn't like me. haha! i remember during my high school days i was always the one with the lowest score when playing it with my closest friends. i'm the type who would always scratch my head when i get my turn. i would feel proud once i get a score of 10 for every word. example of words i typically form: IN, ON, AT, TO, TOO, TWO...and drumroll please...i will add the most precious letter S if applicable.
++++++++++
i am so amazed by how the brain works. i don't believe that we only use the 10% of it. maybe some people misinterpreted Albert Einstein's joke back in the day. the result is a businessman wanted to sell products that would make the 90% work. nowadays, i see lots of TV ads telling me that if i take their brain vitamin, my test results will improve, and my memory will be enhanced. haha! while watching the ad i was half-expecting if i could do magic tricks once i take the pill..
scientists say that the brain is efficient. each part of the brain has its own purpose. from getting and interpreting information, making decisions, communicating, controlling the body, falling in love, to recognizing the person you've been wanting to kill all this time - all of these go through our brain.
signs that your brain is working: (warning: dont believe everything.)
1. you ask youself "Who am I?" knowing your name, age, address, race, sex, height, weight, and your favorite food isn't enough. it's about knowing who you really are as a person.
2. you decide to memorize the value of pi up to its 37th decimal place. (3.14159265358979323846266433832795028841)
3. you start thinking of what you can contribute to mankind besides world peace.
4. you're reading superdindin's blog.
5. you realize that what you're reading now is full of crap.
++++++++++
10 signs that you're definitely bored:
10. you start talking to yourself.
9. you realize no one is talking back so you turn the TV on.
8. there's nothing fun to watch so you turn the TV off.
7. since you're totally bored, you decide to make your own Top Ten list.
6. then you decide not to finish it.
++++++++++
i have two main reasons why i write:
1. for the reader to learn.
2. i want to entertain so the reader will have fun.
(tsktsk. i have to make sure i have done at least any of the two.)
++++++++++
the three biggest mistakes of humans:
1. not having faith in God.
2. not befriending me.
3. not reading my blog.
++++++++++
Upon writing this, i've realized that i have two dreams. one is to be a CPA. another is to be a writer. if you will ask me why, i have my answers ready for that.
i want to be a CPA not just because i want those three meaningful/blinking letters to be written beside my unique name someday. i want to be a CPA because i want to be an accountant, which is the same as guys wanting me to be their girlfriend. haha okay serious now. well, i see myself working in big companies, and earning a huge amount of salary. having a calculator as my sidekick. oops.
i want to be a writer not just because i want to be one. it's because i want to write. that's where it starts. i don't know if it's innate talent, but it all starts with getting a pen and paper, and jotting down all your thoughts and ideas, and your crush's name. oops. haha!
++++++++++
the end.
Contentment = Happiness = Thankfulness
i guess no one can really HAVE it all . . .
I have this friend of mine who shared something about what he hates in most people. It's about thinking that happiness is a destination. Thank you soo much, friend, because you just gave me an idea on what to write about today! haha!
I just came to thinking, that a person's ultimate dream, could mean nothing to another. That what a person wants, could mean a problem to another. I find it super interesting, so I decided to share to you some of my views regarding the ironies in life. Including the frustrations.
Have you wished that you were filthy rich?
If I would answer that question, I would definitely admit that I have those moments where I wish I was filthy rich. Who wouldn't want the resources to have anything and everything they want, right? The saying that "money can't buy happiness" is cliche. Well, for some they might say that it's true, and for some, they might say, hell nooo, money = everything.
I have some friends from school that have money. I don't come from a family with lots of money, else I wouldn't wish I was filthy rich. haha. But they befriended me. Well, I'm just part of the population who have a different opinion about rich kids. They are just human. I don't like to compare them to my other friends. I love them just the way they are. But sometimes, it does hurt to know, that some people who know them, think that they achieved this or that, just because they have the means, the money, and you know the rest.
Would it hurt to think that maybe, they achieved what they got not because of their money? What if they are just intelligent and gifted people? Don't they realize that once a person has talent/knowledge, he really has it?! Mr. or Ms. Rich finds it hard to prove to a lot of people that he can do things on his own, without the help of his money, because he can do it, and he really can.
Have you wished that you were famous?
Many Filipinos are fascinated by fame. Well, I guess not only Filipinos. Whether it be in your village, in your class, in your school, in your office, in your town, famous among the boys/girls or just famous in general.
I'm not just talking about popular movie celebrities here, but every prominent people that we know about. From politicians, TV reporters, reality show contestants, singers, journalists, writers, etc.
Let me share to you how I view the life of a famous person. He had to learn to enjoy the spotlight. He had to dress neatly just to look polished and presentable. He loved the fact that people admire him, because of his values, his opinion on certain issues, and his talent. Everyone wanted to have his photo taken wherever he goes. They wanted to score his look. They dream to be like him.
Just so that people will continue admiring him, he had to be this way forever. He had to smile, even though he didn't want to. He wanted to get mad, but he couldn't. He had to pretend that he is this person, this person whom everyone thinks is perfect. Then one day, he had a bad day. He got himself drunk. He was on the news. After a single mistake, people changed their opinion of him. That was when it hit him. So many people were trying to look him in the eye, giving a different meaning to everything he does, feeding false stories, and name calling. Suddenly, he felt that he didn't belong to that world. He wanted a simple life. He just wanted to blend in with the crowd. He became tired of always trying to stand out.
Have you wished that you were physically perfect?
These days, it seems like everyone cares about their looks. Well, it's just normal to care about your looks, because good grooming is important. But, it's just sad to think, that most of us only care about looks. We forget to do lots of important things to do with our time. I'm not just talking about girls in general. But even the boys.
A friend of mine once told me, that most boys are afraid to talk to gorgeous girls, because they do think that they can't measure up when it comes to looks. But, is it always about the looks?
I have read from this magazine about this model/actress who knows that she has brains. The sad thing was, most people thought that she's dumb, that all she has is that beautiful face. Little did she know, that those people who thought she was dumb were just jealous.
I really believe that everyone can be beautiful in their own way. Not just by having the loveliest eyes, the perfect nose, the Angelina Jolie lips, the sun-kissed skin, the curvy body, etc. Just think about those people who made a difference because they know that they can make this world a beautiful place. Do you think that you can make a difference in just a snap because people looked at your beautiful face? NO way. haha!
Insecurities are part of our lives. It's normal to be insecure - it'll never go away! A teen says, 'I don't have boobs' or 'I don't have a butt.' A young adult says, 'I'm getting fat.' When you've aged, it's 'I've many wrinkles.' Well, I think they motivate us to live a healthy lifestyle, dress well, and develop our talents. As long as we don't let our insecurities rule our lives, all will be well! Whether you're geeky or the gorgeous type, know that it's cool to be both!
Do you know what makes me feel really beautiful? It's when someone thanks me for something I've done, when I receive a good hug, when someone puts an effort to make me laugh when I'm sad, and when I discovered my passions. That said, a girl will always feel more beautiful when she's comfortable in what she's wearing, doing, and even saying.
Let's include all the other "I WISH.." in this world...
some say, "No pain, no gain."
others say, "Be careful what you wish for."
there's also the saying that, "Make the most out of what you have."
and of course how they say, "There will always be persons who are greater and lesser than who you are, so don't compare."
Well, by putting all of that together, it made me think, that maybe, even if you can't have it all, there will come a time that your contentment, appreciation and thankfulness will help make you feel that you indeed have it all, you're just too busy to see all of them.
Thank you for reading! :))
I have this friend of mine who shared something about what he hates in most people. It's about thinking that happiness is a destination. Thank you soo much, friend, because you just gave me an idea on what to write about today! haha!
I just came to thinking, that a person's ultimate dream, could mean nothing to another. That what a person wants, could mean a problem to another. I find it super interesting, so I decided to share to you some of my views regarding the ironies in life. Including the frustrations.
Have you wished that you were filthy rich?
If I would answer that question, I would definitely admit that I have those moments where I wish I was filthy rich. Who wouldn't want the resources to have anything and everything they want, right? The saying that "money can't buy happiness" is cliche. Well, for some they might say that it's true, and for some, they might say, hell nooo, money = everything.
I have some friends from school that have money. I don't come from a family with lots of money, else I wouldn't wish I was filthy rich. haha. But they befriended me. Well, I'm just part of the population who have a different opinion about rich kids. They are just human. I don't like to compare them to my other friends. I love them just the way they are. But sometimes, it does hurt to know, that some people who know them, think that they achieved this or that, just because they have the means, the money, and you know the rest.
Would it hurt to think that maybe, they achieved what they got not because of their money? What if they are just intelligent and gifted people? Don't they realize that once a person has talent/knowledge, he really has it?! Mr. or Ms. Rich finds it hard to prove to a lot of people that he can do things on his own, without the help of his money, because he can do it, and he really can.
Have you wished that you were famous?
Many Filipinos are fascinated by fame. Well, I guess not only Filipinos. Whether it be in your village, in your class, in your school, in your office, in your town, famous among the boys/girls or just famous in general.
I'm not just talking about popular movie celebrities here, but every prominent people that we know about. From politicians, TV reporters, reality show contestants, singers, journalists, writers, etc.
Let me share to you how I view the life of a famous person. He had to learn to enjoy the spotlight. He had to dress neatly just to look polished and presentable. He loved the fact that people admire him, because of his values, his opinion on certain issues, and his talent. Everyone wanted to have his photo taken wherever he goes. They wanted to score his look. They dream to be like him.
Just so that people will continue admiring him, he had to be this way forever. He had to smile, even though he didn't want to. He wanted to get mad, but he couldn't. He had to pretend that he is this person, this person whom everyone thinks is perfect. Then one day, he had a bad day. He got himself drunk. He was on the news. After a single mistake, people changed their opinion of him. That was when it hit him. So many people were trying to look him in the eye, giving a different meaning to everything he does, feeding false stories, and name calling. Suddenly, he felt that he didn't belong to that world. He wanted a simple life. He just wanted to blend in with the crowd. He became tired of always trying to stand out.
Have you wished that you were physically perfect?
These days, it seems like everyone cares about their looks. Well, it's just normal to care about your looks, because good grooming is important. But, it's just sad to think, that most of us only care about looks. We forget to do lots of important things to do with our time. I'm not just talking about girls in general. But even the boys.
A friend of mine once told me, that most boys are afraid to talk to gorgeous girls, because they do think that they can't measure up when it comes to looks. But, is it always about the looks?
I have read from this magazine about this model/actress who knows that she has brains. The sad thing was, most people thought that she's dumb, that all she has is that beautiful face. Little did she know, that those people who thought she was dumb were just jealous.
I really believe that everyone can be beautiful in their own way. Not just by having the loveliest eyes, the perfect nose, the Angelina Jolie lips, the sun-kissed skin, the curvy body, etc. Just think about those people who made a difference because they know that they can make this world a beautiful place. Do you think that you can make a difference in just a snap because people looked at your beautiful face? NO way. haha!
Insecurities are part of our lives. It's normal to be insecure - it'll never go away! A teen says, 'I don't have boobs' or 'I don't have a butt.' A young adult says, 'I'm getting fat.' When you've aged, it's 'I've many wrinkles.' Well, I think they motivate us to live a healthy lifestyle, dress well, and develop our talents. As long as we don't let our insecurities rule our lives, all will be well! Whether you're geeky or the gorgeous type, know that it's cool to be both!
Do you know what makes me feel really beautiful? It's when someone thanks me for something I've done, when I receive a good hug, when someone puts an effort to make me laugh when I'm sad, and when I discovered my passions. That said, a girl will always feel more beautiful when she's comfortable in what she's wearing, doing, and even saying.
Let's include all the other "I WISH.." in this world...
some say, "No pain, no gain."
others say, "Be careful what you wish for."
there's also the saying that, "Make the most out of what you have."
and of course how they say, "There will always be persons who are greater and lesser than who you are, so don't compare."
Well, by putting all of that together, it made me think, that maybe, even if you can't have it all, there will come a time that your contentment, appreciation and thankfulness will help make you feel that you indeed have it all, you're just too busy to see all of them.
Thank you for reading! :))
Monday, March 24, 2008
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